**A mom question/help needed in the very last part of this post!**
Well today, I did a little experiment. I didn’t turn on the computer until after lunchtime. I feel like I’ve been on it WAY too much for not using it for work. I got alot done this morning! I did 8 miles on the treadmill and it was kind of a drag. I have to say, I am not super motivated and would much rather run outside and with someone!
Also, today, I decided to stay away from bar eating to see how that went. While I was running, I was thinking – what am I putting into my body? powerbars, gu, jellybeans(sportbeans)… hmm. I really need to eat more natural foods and not get by with bars. Also, I need to think of easy lunch options. I started thinking, hmm, maybe these boca burgers and morningstar burgers that I live on aren’t the best thing for me either! I really need some lunch ideas, it is hard for me to change how I view things like eating bread/wraps, etc. I usually skip the bread/carbs and just want something nutrient dense. Any vegetarians out there? What do you eat for lunch?
My long run this week is 16 miles. My inlaws are in town so I could do 16 miles everyday to pass the time. Just kidding. Well, not really. Parents of any kind being in my house for more than 2 hours at a clip is difficult for me : ) I’m going to go on Sunday morning down to Kelly drive and do 2 loops. Lucky for me, Abby said she’d meet me and do her 12 miles for this week. HOORAY!!!! I was sort of dreading running alone.
Then the following week is this 10 mile “race” (for me) that is also a marathon. It is the same course and you stop at 10 miles or keep going if you are running the marathon. I’m trying to decide if I will stop at the 10, get my time, and keep going for 18-20 with the marathoners as my training run. Might be killer.
Since I have no pictures, here a picture of the day:
The other thing going on is my 360 change. Back in the day, when I was pregnant, I was sooo resentful that I had to deal with the body changes, carry a baby, and stay home from work for 6ish weeks. I really just wanted a stork to deliver the baby.I thought nursing was horrendous and was afraid of what was to come.
Well, NOW, I think the whole thing is a MIRACLE. It is so cool. I will view the whole thing so differently for round 2 – and 3 and 4? Haha. I think nursing creates an awesome bond and is pretty neat how the body even works. AND, most importantly, I already decided that I won’t go back to finish out the school year (I had originally put in for May 1), and now I am thinking that I can NOT leave Nick at daycare in August when I return for next school year. I’m freaking out! I know many of you do it and I know it is hard but I am having a very bad case of motherly guilt and wondering why I shouldn’t stay home with him (the main issue is the benefits – we are all covered through my school). Yes, it would be a pretty large loss of salary, but I would take off 2 years I think (1 year then go back and have another baby and take off the rest of that year – yes, kind of have it figured out) and be working the rest of my life. I LOVEEEE my job, but I can’t imagine loving it knowing I have a baby at home that I am not watching. I do not love being at home just yet, but I’m adjusting to it. I feel that I would miss my job, but that in my heart wouldn’t be into it. I think the main problem I have is that he’d be 7 months and unable to speak yet to tell us if anything was wrong or treating him wrong? Even though the daycare we found seems great – now that he is here, I do not think I can do it!
I have to decide by April 1 and write my letter to school telling them when I will return. I can keep my job even if I take off until September 2010. I just get no pay and no benefits.
moms- and non moms – advice wanted!
Home with my little guy! (I think this counts for 10)
I get to work the rest of my life – not missing much
I might get bored!
I’ll start talking like a baby and brain will turn to mush
No pay, no benefits